let's begin, shall we?

i don't really know why i created this thing.

i think it's a combination of feeling lonely at times, wanting to piss and moan but not to anyone specific, and simply having nothing better to do online.


i've been thinking about making a blog of my own for a while now. needless to say, i never got to it. i never knew what to say. i spent a while reading blogs to see what people write about and i realized that people don't really say anything. they just rant or analyze or talk about their favorite movie. it all seems like such a waste of time, but i already feel better after writing just a paragraph and two sentences. i guess i know why people do it.
i suppose in the coming weeks i'll have more to say and now that i have a place to put my thoughts i might let them out more often.

the only thing that comes to mind right now is my recent obsession with star wars. i always liked it but recently i have just been going crazy. i've been buying toys, starting to collect the bobbleheads they sell at target, getting mcdonald's happy meals just to get some of the clone wars toys, actually woke up early to see the clone wars, framed/hung my star wars stamps, have been watching/quoting the movies every chance i get, i read the revenge of the sith novel in like a week (usually it takes me a month to get through a book no matter how much i like it), bought the original trilogy book series... i can't even name it all. you know there might be a problem when you start saying "gequa!" to people after watching the deleted scenes in episode 1... you know, when anakin is trying to beat up greedo.
i seriously have no idea why my love for the subject has recently gone haywire.
i was going through the guide on the cable earlier today and found a star wars special on the history channel. it was like a 3 hour special (i missed the first hour) and they had actors, historians, professors, authors, news anchors (like dan rather and tom brokaw) and just about everyone else and they were breaking down the movies piece by piece. they were pointing out the historical references, how C-3po and R2 act like the comedic reliefs in ancient greek plays, and a bunch of other stuff.
it made me realize that i actually enjoy the context and deep meanings of the movies. for me it goes past just thinking people fighting with oversized glow sticks are fascinating or darth vader is a badass mofo. ever since i was old enough to get past all that, i have been looking into the actual story and finding the lessons that you're supposed to get from them. what i get from the movies actually play in real life. at some point, everyone can relate to the personal struggles with power, desire, passion, and arrogance that is focused on in almost every single movie. the greatest part of it all is that they show what it eventually leads to.
the main thing that i learned from the saga is that you will not only have to rely on someone for help, but you have to trust that they will help. you can get screwed over and probably will at least once, but it teaches you what not to do next time.

long story short... i love star wars. call me a nerd, shut me up when i quote, whatever. you can't deny that it is more than just spiffy special effects and cheesy attempts at love stories. there is a lot of substance to the saga that comes from a deeper place and it gives off a lot of wisdom when you are able to see it.





and that's all for now. if you read all of that, i applaud you.